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タグ「fefates」を含む投稿［62件］（2ページ目）
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your ruin, my ruin (epilouge) // a #fefates gunter/corrin doujinshi side strip; revelation route. based on the final scene of this fanfic.
after everything – the fight against anankos, the possession, peace between nohr and hoshido – gunter and corrin have one last decision.
this strip will be part of a printed gunter/corrin r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
2024.09.02 21:17:05 編集
DEAD IS CALLING // a gunter/corrin doujinshi side strip; revelation route.
even after anankos is defeated in valla and her lover is returned, corrin wonders… what would have happened if he had won?
⚠ share on tumblr / read on ao3 / share on bsky
⚠ this strip will be part of a printed #fefates r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
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even after anankos is defeated in valla and her lover is returned, corrin wonders… what would have happened if he had won?
⚠ share on tumblr / read on ao3 / share on bsky
⚠ this strip will be part of a printed #fefates r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
COLLAPSE
'your ruin, my ruin' is my 120k #fefates gunter/corrin slowburn romance where they both earn their happy ending. 💕 complete, revelation route ~
📚 to read on Ao3
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📚 to read on Ao3
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i made a cover for my #fefates gunter/corrin 120k fanfiction, your ruin, my ruin
here's the step-by-step cover progress for the curious, under the cut!
before drawing, there were a few things i knew that the cover had to have/show:
*critically, had to have vibes of an enemies-to-lovers dynamic in the sense of … the power tilt? even though that’s not “technically” the true nature of their dynamic. gunter’s not a nice guy in this fic, even aside from the possession, and i also didn’t want anybody to run into this unsuspecting the darker parts to the fic. him more looming/threatening than you’d expect in base game, etc.
* wanted to emulate kozaki’s style through the whole cover in line qualitty, coloring, and composition. thankfully he gives a few tips over on his twitter. it’s both a neat little nod at the source material, and also as a style experiment.
* a big theme in this fic is gunter being made of so many masks/shells (there’s a perfect blue cover, see below, that specifically made me think this composition could work.)
* learning that kozaki hews pretty close to grids + the golden ratio was another big lightbulb moment, here’s a drawing yoinked from his twitter where he shows it himself.
after scraping/studying from kozaki’s twitter, i made one or two thumbnail doodles below. you can see the solid one had a golden ratio + general line dynamic check squiggled to the side. there’s room for the title, the focus is on corrin, it’ll work both in a horizontal and vertical crop, looking good so far.
you can see how pretty tightly to the thumbnail i kept, other than moving the vertical text to the top since i didn’t have as much room there. i’m a little worried about the different line quality between how big the face is vs corrin but we’ll see. something i also realized i like about the composition is corrin “could” look like she’s attacking the viewer, but she also looks like she could be guarding him with her back to him, which…. heh. comes up in some interesting ways in the last third of the fic (possession wise). bunch of cleaning up.
as I suspected since this is 11x17in (much bigger than what i normally draw) i had to grab a different brush for gunter since thin lines were not going to work as they did for corrin. i think kozaki’s real genius is how he treats texture with his linework; where he does thin lines, where he puts the thick ones, etc. corrin’s coming along great but there’s a spirit to the first face on the left i think i’m missing now, so i’ll probably re-insert that. (also decided to at least draw in his face there even though the masks/slices will distort that). i think what also helps is gunter’s face is very low contrast and needs to remain low contrast, to help corrin pop out in front.
then i started thinking about typography. a lot of the fonts i had were either way too masculine/bland/modern, or way too feminine/curvy. this title needs a hint of masculinity to nod at FE’s general action-adventure RPG roots, but it’s also very distinctly the kind of erotica that doesn’t easily lend itself to a genre. it’s tender horror, it’s daddy kink, it’s vicious romance, it’s … a lot of things. here’s another thing: when thinking about title typography, another consideration is genre. briefly i considered something like lovecraftian covers; my doujin circle and i had been sharing pictures of old pulp covers. i also noticed a lot of my favorite JP erotic horror doujin have very spiky titles. this title also needs to be scrunched up in a tight space so it’s not like we got a sprawl of acreage here either. what doesn’t help is enemies to lovers doesn’t really have a visual language in mainstream media. it’s a staple of Ao3 (written) genres, but the closest you’d get otherwise would be romantic horror (kind of says a lot about who makes what huh?). for example, the shape of water (movie) isn’t a 1:1, but it’s pretty damn close — unfortunately that poster dodged the question by using an art deco-inspired font typeface that was more about the setting than the genre. and then i had an epiphany. maybe i was approaching this from the wrong direction: it’s the knight/liege romance that’s the heartbeat to YRMR. think more old dragonlance novels. old medieval/fantasy pulp novels; plenty of kinky sex and ass in there, and still close enough to FE. remember everyone and their mamma having a bi ass crush for bad boy raistlin? that’s the vibe i want.
this kind of glorious deranged shit. you’re not gonna be surprised at possessed grandpa whip kink if you read these on the regular. after ~*arcane designer magic*~ (I do this for a living) bolton and magiona display were the two fonts that were gonna work just fine together. god that looks so much better. this looks believable now.
the thin/thick line weight contrast in magiona display is going to accentuate the lineart in a way that might be tricky with other fonts that work better on painted covers. bolton’s “squished” vertically enough it doesn’t compete with the other one, and makes for a good secondary/tertiary font. few other things happened. i shrunk gunter’s face because not being able to see his jawline (sex appeal u see) was bothering me from a composition standpoint. it’s the same reason frank frazetta didn’t censor his glorious asses. (said seriously, by the way. so many people don’t give their lust in art enough credit.)
i also needed more room for the title to show, and the line quality/scale difference between his face was also bugging me. does this mess up the golden ratio composition? sure, temporarily, but his armor’s weirdly flexible that we can adapt it pretty easily. it’s about this time i’m also looking through my hydrus network stash of favorite covers for what color palette and contrast to use. kozaki tends to skew purple/cooler hues for nohr characters, and that’d go well with these two. purple/green hues that play well with light purple and the yellow from those old covers i love so much, low contrast midground, and something that’d contrast well with text above. dark/black background for the gothic vibes, and the text will probably need to be white or some sort of light-warm hue for that “pop”. doing color tests is more of a leap of faith and intuition than an exact science, but damn it is it satisfying when you nail it in one go and go ‘holy shit i want to read this. 😀
(green/gold for the hint of anankos’ mask, also matching the yato and her warmer skin tone. purple flames for him, but the high contrast armor to separate her from his larger shapes. we’ve got the dragonstone and the yato as flexibility for lighting and emphasizing contrast with her. ) i kind of like how i accidentally made the mask shards reflect(?) a bit of his own face. hell yeah throw it in. this is something that’s more likely to work than not. this is something that has that mix of id and horror i’ve been going after. here’s another version with references to the side and the golden ratio laid on again.
honestly a lot of it at this step is going ‘dude you know what would be SO DOPE…. PURPLE FIRE…’ ‘dude….. fuck yes….’ ‘what about some sick ass sword effects?’ ‘YEAH….’ and saving a bunch of backups in case of the idea didn’t work out. (am i going so much harder on a literal gilf porn fanfic cover than i need to? hell yeah. gunterfuckers deserve better. 😀 ) anyway here is when i start questioning everything, so i’ll take a break from the colors to tighten up the lineart. now that the composition’s settling in much tighter, i’m also thinking about how the two shapes interact with each other and if there’s any potential issues with tangent points (where two lines intersect each other in a way that makes an optical illusion.)
that said i love how his jawline “points” at her face, that kind of line you want. grinding away on corrin’s lineart. also double checking that the shapes/colors/forms for her “make sense” both standalone and with the composition too. what’s nice is she’s at the point where i can just turn off my brain and polish up. naturally couldn’t resist poking at it more and this is when the rest of it clicked after figuring out which bit was anankos’ mask, which bit was possessed!gunter vs himself (polished up the armor a bit too. at this point i’m pretty confident that it’ll stay “set”; the biggest thing i’m likely to change is the blue silhouette to the dragonstone side for corrin.
thanks for reading. 😀 COLLAPSE
here's the step-by-step cover progress for the curious, under the cut!
before drawing, there were a few things i knew that the cover had to have/show:
*critically, had to have vibes of an enemies-to-lovers dynamic in the sense of … the power tilt? even though that’s not “technically” the true nature of their dynamic. gunter’s not a nice guy in this fic, even aside from the possession, and i also didn’t want anybody to run into this unsuspecting the darker parts to the fic. him more looming/threatening than you’d expect in base game, etc.
* wanted to emulate kozaki’s style through the whole cover in line qualitty, coloring, and composition. thankfully he gives a few tips over on his twitter. it’s both a neat little nod at the source material, and also as a style experiment.
* a big theme in this fic is gunter being made of so many masks/shells (there’s a perfect blue cover, see below, that specifically made me think this composition could work.)
* learning that kozaki hews pretty close to grids + the golden ratio was another big lightbulb moment, here’s a drawing yoinked from his twitter where he shows it himself.
after scraping/studying from kozaki’s twitter, i made one or two thumbnail doodles below. you can see the solid one had a golden ratio + general line dynamic check squiggled to the side. there’s room for the title, the focus is on corrin, it’ll work both in a horizontal and vertical crop, looking good so far.
you can see how pretty tightly to the thumbnail i kept, other than moving the vertical text to the top since i didn’t have as much room there. i’m a little worried about the different line quality between how big the face is vs corrin but we’ll see. something i also realized i like about the composition is corrin “could” look like she’s attacking the viewer, but she also looks like she could be guarding him with her back to him, which…. heh. comes up in some interesting ways in the last third of the fic (possession wise). bunch of cleaning up.
as I suspected since this is 11x17in (much bigger than what i normally draw) i had to grab a different brush for gunter since thin lines were not going to work as they did for corrin. i think kozaki’s real genius is how he treats texture with his linework; where he does thin lines, where he puts the thick ones, etc. corrin’s coming along great but there’s a spirit to the first face on the left i think i’m missing now, so i’ll probably re-insert that. (also decided to at least draw in his face there even though the masks/slices will distort that). i think what also helps is gunter’s face is very low contrast and needs to remain low contrast, to help corrin pop out in front.
then i started thinking about typography. a lot of the fonts i had were either way too masculine/bland/modern, or way too feminine/curvy. this title needs a hint of masculinity to nod at FE’s general action-adventure RPG roots, but it’s also very distinctly the kind of erotica that doesn’t easily lend itself to a genre. it’s tender horror, it’s daddy kink, it’s vicious romance, it’s … a lot of things. here’s another thing: when thinking about title typography, another consideration is genre. briefly i considered something like lovecraftian covers; my doujin circle and i had been sharing pictures of old pulp covers. i also noticed a lot of my favorite JP erotic horror doujin have very spiky titles. this title also needs to be scrunched up in a tight space so it’s not like we got a sprawl of acreage here either. what doesn’t help is enemies to lovers doesn’t really have a visual language in mainstream media. it’s a staple of Ao3 (written) genres, but the closest you’d get otherwise would be romantic horror (kind of says a lot about who makes what huh?). for example, the shape of water (movie) isn’t a 1:1, but it’s pretty damn close — unfortunately that poster dodged the question by using an art deco-inspired font typeface that was more about the setting than the genre. and then i had an epiphany. maybe i was approaching this from the wrong direction: it’s the knight/liege romance that’s the heartbeat to YRMR. think more old dragonlance novels. old medieval/fantasy pulp novels; plenty of kinky sex and ass in there, and still close enough to FE. remember everyone and their mamma having a bi ass crush for bad boy raistlin? that’s the vibe i want.
this kind of glorious deranged shit. you’re not gonna be surprised at possessed grandpa whip kink if you read these on the regular. after ~*arcane designer magic*~ (I do this for a living) bolton and magiona display were the two fonts that were gonna work just fine together. god that looks so much better. this looks believable now.
the thin/thick line weight contrast in magiona display is going to accentuate the lineart in a way that might be tricky with other fonts that work better on painted covers. bolton’s “squished” vertically enough it doesn’t compete with the other one, and makes for a good secondary/tertiary font. few other things happened. i shrunk gunter’s face because not being able to see his jawline (sex appeal u see) was bothering me from a composition standpoint. it’s the same reason frank frazetta didn’t censor his glorious asses. (said seriously, by the way. so many people don’t give their lust in art enough credit.)
i also needed more room for the title to show, and the line quality/scale difference between his face was also bugging me. does this mess up the golden ratio composition? sure, temporarily, but his armor’s weirdly flexible that we can adapt it pretty easily. it’s about this time i’m also looking through my hydrus network stash of favorite covers for what color palette and contrast to use. kozaki tends to skew purple/cooler hues for nohr characters, and that’d go well with these two. purple/green hues that play well with light purple and the yellow from those old covers i love so much, low contrast midground, and something that’d contrast well with text above. dark/black background for the gothic vibes, and the text will probably need to be white or some sort of light-warm hue for that “pop”. doing color tests is more of a leap of faith and intuition than an exact science, but damn it is it satisfying when you nail it in one go and go ‘holy shit i want to read this. 😀
(green/gold for the hint of anankos’ mask, also matching the yato and her warmer skin tone. purple flames for him, but the high contrast armor to separate her from his larger shapes. we’ve got the dragonstone and the yato as flexibility for lighting and emphasizing contrast with her. ) i kind of like how i accidentally made the mask shards reflect(?) a bit of his own face. hell yeah throw it in. this is something that’s more likely to work than not. this is something that has that mix of id and horror i’ve been going after. here’s another version with references to the side and the golden ratio laid on again.
honestly a lot of it at this step is going ‘dude you know what would be SO DOPE…. PURPLE FIRE…’ ‘dude….. fuck yes….’ ‘what about some sick ass sword effects?’ ‘YEAH….’ and saving a bunch of backups in case of the idea didn’t work out. (am i going so much harder on a literal gilf porn fanfic cover than i need to? hell yeah. gunterfuckers deserve better. 😀 ) anyway here is when i start questioning everything, so i’ll take a break from the colors to tighten up the lineart. now that the composition’s settling in much tighter, i’m also thinking about how the two shapes interact with each other and if there’s any potential issues with tangent points (where two lines intersect each other in a way that makes an optical illusion.)
that said i love how his jawline “points” at her face, that kind of line you want. grinding away on corrin’s lineart. also double checking that the shapes/colors/forms for her “make sense” both standalone and with the composition too. what’s nice is she’s at the point where i can just turn off my brain and polish up. naturally couldn’t resist poking at it more and this is when the rest of it clicked after figuring out which bit was anankos’ mask, which bit was possessed!gunter vs himself (polished up the armor a bit too. at this point i’m pretty confident that it’ll stay “set”; the biggest thing i’m likely to change is the blue silhouette to the dragonstone side for corrin.
thanks for reading. 😀 COLLAPSE
nagamas gift to rarepairsmut on twitter, enjoy! one of the ships was shura/corrin; i had been eying those two for a while so it was a delight to try my hand at them along with some added details ~ shura keeps appearing on my recent fates teams no matter what.
filed under #fefates & #fegen since it's not gunter-related
filed under #fefates & #fegen since it's not gunter-related
assorted sketchdumps of scenes from your ruin, my ruin my 120k #fefates gunter/corrin slowburn fic. even getting bad wrist problems in spring 2024 didn't slow me down... nsfw under the cut!
unclench your fists, my lover, the war is over now.
(i’ve forgotten how to uncurl my fingers from the trigger.)
be gentle, my lover, the war is over now.
(i don’t remember what it’s like not to have gunsteel in my bones.)
come home, my lover, the war is over now.
(i’m back at the place i left but home is gone where i cannot find it.)
sleep, my lover, the war is over now.
(the war follows me into sleep. i’m afraid i’ll never leave it behind.)
kiss me, my lover, the war is over now.
(my fingers still drip red and i do not want to stain you with them.)
— teach me how to be at peace again ( j.p. )
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unclench your fists, my lover, the war is over now.
(i’ve forgotten how to uncurl my fingers from the trigger.)
be gentle, my lover, the war is over now.
(i don’t remember what it’s like not to have gunsteel in my bones.)
come home, my lover, the war is over now.
(i’m back at the place i left but home is gone where i cannot find it.)
sleep, my lover, the war is over now.
(the war follows me into sleep. i’m afraid i’ll never leave it behind.)
kiss me, my lover, the war is over now.
(my fingers still drip red and i do not want to stain you with them.)
— teach me how to be at peace again ( j.p. )
COLLAPSE
gunterleigh gifts to lululeighsworld for being so kind to me as i loose my mind over their FE hubby <3
first pic is us having a teatime double date :) the refill line is actually an easter egg nod to their adorable fic as it felt apropos. filed under #fefates & #zihark
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first pic is us having a teatime double date :) the refill line is actually an easter egg nod to their adorable fic as it felt apropos. filed under #fefates & #zihark
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even late blooms need a good watering - for jonphaedrus
crossposted on Ao3
tags: #fefates
Creator Chose Not To Use Warnings
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crossposted on Ao3
tags: #fefates
Creator Chose Not To Use Warnings
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probably not the first ossan dakimakura to ever exist, but damn if he's not a exceptionally good looking gent to be featured on one ~ huge shout-out to lululeighsworld on tumblr who was instrumental in egging me on with this project. this was a lot of fun to do on a whim, and vograce was honestly a pleasure to work with in terms of manufacturing.
more pictures under the cut!
filed under #fefates