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2024年の投稿［255件］
2024年12月 この範囲を時系列順で読む この範囲をファイルに出力する
guess what came in the mail the other day (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ
probably not the first ossan dakimakura to ever exist, but damn if he's not a exceptionally good looking gent to be featured on one ~ huge shout-out to lululeighsworld on tumblr who was instrumental in egging me on with this project. this was a lot of fun to do on a whim, and vograce was honestly a pleasure to work with in terms of manufacturing.
more pictures under the cut!
filed under #fefates
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probably not the first ossan dakimakura to ever exist, but damn if he's not a exceptionally good looking gent to be featured on one ~ huge shout-out to lululeighsworld on tumblr who was instrumental in egging me on with this project. this was a lot of fun to do on a whim, and vograce was honestly a pleasure to work with in terms of manufacturing.
more pictures under the cut!
filed under #fefates
COLLAPSE
2024.12.08 19:32:32 編集
started doodling this when i was doing the long strip.... i've always loved seeing other people's yumeship memes but just never was brave enough to make one haha. that or mostly it had details i don't want to share or it didn't have stuff I *DO* want to profoundly overshare [barfs this in ur dash]...
filed under #zihark
filed under #zihark
2024年11月 この範囲を時系列順で読む この範囲をファイルに出力する
Territory (naesala/zihark fic on Ao3, mind the warnings) giftart back to queenlua <3
lua wrote Territory for my birthday and there were so many scenes that still live in my mind rent free i simply had to draw some of them ~! Tellius peeps ABSOLUTELY should check the fic out since there's some delicious post-Radiant Dawn worldbuilding, some sexi character dynamics and a kickass Sanaki.
++ ty for letting me rambl in your ear about naesala headcanons for a change since you've heard me go on about the other half here for a good two decades :P
filed under: #fetellius #zihark
lua wrote Territory for my birthday and there were so many scenes that still live in my mind rent free i simply had to draw some of them ~! Tellius peeps ABSOLUTELY should check the fic out since there's some delicious post-Radiant Dawn worldbuilding, some sexi character dynamics and a kickass Sanaki.
++ ty for letting me rambl in your ear about naesala headcanons for a change since you've heard me go on about the other half here for a good two decades :P
filed under: #fetellius #zihark
2024年10月 この範囲を時系列順で読む この範囲をファイルに出力する
2024年9月 この範囲を時系列順で読む この範囲をファイルに出力する
other than (hopefully) being a crunchy krad-typical story on delicious coercion nuances in silly videogames, this current 14 page strip i'm working on captures a lot of my feelings on twenty years of quietly self shipping.
i say quietly since certian areas of the internet wildly misunderstood or mocked selfshipping for the longest time. a lot of folks may not remember when it was viewed with the similar disdain of 'hags writing smoochy BL fanfiction'.
to be honest, i've been trying to get better about making things i give a shit about. and in some ways, i wouldn't be true to that unless this strip came to life. the truest guilty pleasure piece of art if you will.
mind, it's also been very fun to crack the code on toning & return to an old favorite. i hope you'll enjoy it as much as i am~
filed under #zihark
i say quietly since certian areas of the internet wildly misunderstood or mocked selfshipping for the longest time. a lot of folks may not remember when it was viewed with the similar disdain of 'hags writing smoochy BL fanfiction'.
to be honest, i've been trying to get better about making things i give a shit about. and in some ways, i wouldn't be true to that unless this strip came to life. the truest guilty pleasure piece of art if you will.
mind, it's also been very fun to crack the code on toning & return to an old favorite. i hope you'll enjoy it as much as i am~
filed under #zihark
i don’t know if i consciously started talking more about process and resources, but there’s a few possible explanations…
one, is i guess i’ve always found it neat when peers and mentors explained changes in their work. maybe you get bored. maybe you level up so much that it requires a different process (more complex comic projects aiming to evoke emotions vs single page doodles). maybe you want to showcase your work to a different audience (a background painter wanting to pivot to animation for work, or to simply study character design for fun). maybe you want to get into specific kinds of nsfw art; either for “yolo” reasons or something else.
maybe my reasons have absolutely nothing in common with yours. maybe they do, and it sparks more understanding. talking to satisfy curiosity’s sake, basically - it’s a bonus if more happens.
another take is i feel that a large part of my workflow (both dayjob design management and hobby work) is asking the “why” and then iterating off of that. just my humble opinion but in the age of ai images, the biggest missing step between those images and a sentient creative is the capability of asking the why, (why this as a illust? why are those three lines stylistically drawn like that? why is that prop in there? why is that line arced like so?) and using your slew of mental, physical, and digital tools to execute the work in aim of an unspoken goal (or several).
maybe artists misstepped by not extending an olive branch and illuminating that missing reasoning, in a similar way to educating others on critical thinking (but with visual arts). maybe selfishly i want to leverage this as a way to separate myself from the goopy grey morass of images in a unique way.
maybe this is half a diary to my future self to track what actually works, or to get past an area that i feel stuck in. there’s a concept in tech called rubber duck debugging that’s essentially talking about that why until you get past a mental roadblock.
i also miss how resources back in 2008 just used to be … free. not “technically” free if you sign up for a newsletter/class/etc, but freely given, sincere - no strings attached. honoring the ethos of early-internet ‘information wants to be free’ culture, even if it’s mostly extinct now. mindfully knowing that you’re lifting the current & next generation of artists up, if there’s a need for a reason to go with the extra effort.
i never do anything without multiple reasons why.
perhaps some of these are the answers. COLLAPSE
one, is i guess i’ve always found it neat when peers and mentors explained changes in their work. maybe you get bored. maybe you level up so much that it requires a different process (more complex comic projects aiming to evoke emotions vs single page doodles). maybe you want to showcase your work to a different audience (a background painter wanting to pivot to animation for work, or to simply study character design for fun). maybe you want to get into specific kinds of nsfw art; either for “yolo” reasons or something else.
maybe my reasons have absolutely nothing in common with yours. maybe they do, and it sparks more understanding. talking to satisfy curiosity’s sake, basically - it’s a bonus if more happens.
another take is i feel that a large part of my workflow (both dayjob design management and hobby work) is asking the “why” and then iterating off of that. just my humble opinion but in the age of ai images, the biggest missing step between those images and a sentient creative is the capability of asking the why, (why this as a illust? why are those three lines stylistically drawn like that? why is that prop in there? why is that line arced like so?) and using your slew of mental, physical, and digital tools to execute the work in aim of an unspoken goal (or several).
maybe artists misstepped by not extending an olive branch and illuminating that missing reasoning, in a similar way to educating others on critical thinking (but with visual arts). maybe selfishly i want to leverage this as a way to separate myself from the goopy grey morass of images in a unique way.
maybe this is half a diary to my future self to track what actually works, or to get past an area that i feel stuck in. there’s a concept in tech called rubber duck debugging that’s essentially talking about that why until you get past a mental roadblock.
i also miss how resources back in 2008 just used to be … free. not “technically” free if you sign up for a newsletter/class/etc, but freely given, sincere - no strings attached. honoring the ethos of early-internet ‘information wants to be free’ culture, even if it’s mostly extinct now. mindfully knowing that you’re lifting the current & next generation of artists up, if there’s a need for a reason to go with the extra effort.
i never do anything without multiple reasons why.
perhaps some of these are the answers. COLLAPSE
Not sure if this has been asked before but: do u have any advice for drawing old men?
-Asked by holdinglines
KRAD: Appreciate you asking, this post would be most relevant there ~ I also did two artbook reviews covering JP-styled ossans, if that’s the specific angle you’re looking for.
Otherwise good ol’ observation, practice, and dignity goes a long way.
Observation (preferably from real life if it’s possible, documentaries or gifs if not) to equip the mental library with how skin ages and how bones are a wonderful map underneath. Almost every time I’m talking to a person, I’ll be mentally sketching out how I would draw their interactions and the curvature of the face. If you’ve ever played the videogame Okami, it’s a remarkably similar notion to “drawing” on top of that world. :)
On the other side, I like documentaries specifically because you get a wider variety of folks and you can see the specific body language as well, and how age affects how people move.
Practice, if only for the (unfortunately unavoidable) fact that learned repetition over time teaches you what lines are critical and what lines aren’t needed for the sake of clarity. There’s also going to be a period of adjustment time in getting used to drawing those different shapes, lines, and motions especially if favorite subjects have skewed younger before. It’s totally natural and nothing to be ashamed of - I find it takes me a solid year before I’m truly comfortable drawing a brand new subject.
And last but greatest: dignity, as they’re no less visually interesting than any one of us, regardless if you’re coming from a place of personal attraction or not. You can (and should) draw breathtakingly erotic, kinky, sexual pieces that channel that dignity hand in hand - but it’s dignity in how you breathe a lived life into those lines, both on paper and what you’re depicting.COLLAPSE
-Asked by holdinglines
KRAD: Appreciate you asking, this post would be most relevant there ~ I also did two artbook reviews covering JP-styled ossans, if that’s the specific angle you’re looking for.
Otherwise good ol’ observation, practice, and dignity goes a long way.
Observation (preferably from real life if it’s possible, documentaries or gifs if not) to equip the mental library with how skin ages and how bones are a wonderful map underneath. Almost every time I’m talking to a person, I’ll be mentally sketching out how I would draw their interactions and the curvature of the face. If you’ve ever played the videogame Okami, it’s a remarkably similar notion to “drawing” on top of that world. :)
On the other side, I like documentaries specifically because you get a wider variety of folks and you can see the specific body language as well, and how age affects how people move.
Practice, if only for the (unfortunately unavoidable) fact that learned repetition over time teaches you what lines are critical and what lines aren’t needed for the sake of clarity. There’s also going to be a period of adjustment time in getting used to drawing those different shapes, lines, and motions especially if favorite subjects have skewed younger before. It’s totally natural and nothing to be ashamed of - I find it takes me a solid year before I’m truly comfortable drawing a brand new subject.
And last but greatest: dignity, as they’re no less visually interesting than any one of us, regardless if you’re coming from a place of personal attraction or not. You can (and should) draw breathtakingly erotic, kinky, sexual pieces that channel that dignity hand in hand - but it’s dignity in how you breathe a lived life into those lines, both on paper and what you’re depicting.COLLAPSE
ANONYMOUS: What are your favorite brushes?
KRAD: Ha, you timed that well as I was considering making a ‘what tools do I use’ post. information wants to be free and all of that ~
Before I get into specific brushes, I need to mention hardware. Two years ago i switched permanently to linux (Ubuntu distro), via a system76 laptop . Linux isn’t for the tech-fainthearted, but if you hav a passion for playing with computers and are feeling increasingly constricted with the subscription BS that mac/win is pushing, consider giving it a trial run.
Krita is an open-sourced free paint/vector program that’s available on all major OS’s (win/mac/linux), but is by far the best one for linux. Frankly, I adore Krita; it reminds me of the best of paint tool SAI way back in the day, a little of photoshop CS2, and I just discovered in the past two weeks it’s got some deceptively powerful vector tools for speech bubbles and comics. open source programs used to be pretty pathetic compared to “professional” ones but the gap between krita and say, CSP is pretty nil.
Now to talk brushes: I uploaded a slightly older version of my go-to brushes here on mediafire some which have been slightly tweaked from krita defaults. there’s a solid pen one, a halftone brush, and some watercolor ones.
however, I discovered these brushes (thanks to @am-herrington) a few months ago and am convinced the linked newer brushes are going to make everything else I have obsolete - the natural/textural inking is just that good. tl;dr - just grab these.
some other odds and ends to my process: i could not draw without the hydrus network which is essentially a booru-esque media organizing program. stores gifs, images, can mass-download images, and has a robust tagging ability. taco’s drawing book is one of the one I’ll also reliably flip through when my brain’s trying to figure out a piece of tricky anatomy. lastly, blambot is my trusted go-to font store when I’m in need of a manga/comics related font; there’s some very generous pricing and freebies for indie comics. COLLAPSE
KRAD: Ha, you timed that well as I was considering making a ‘what tools do I use’ post. information wants to be free and all of that ~
Before I get into specific brushes, I need to mention hardware. Two years ago i switched permanently to linux (Ubuntu distro), via a system76 laptop . Linux isn’t for the tech-fainthearted, but if you hav a passion for playing with computers and are feeling increasingly constricted with the subscription BS that mac/win is pushing, consider giving it a trial run.
Krita is an open-sourced free paint/vector program that’s available on all major OS’s (win/mac/linux), but is by far the best one for linux. Frankly, I adore Krita; it reminds me of the best of paint tool SAI way back in the day, a little of photoshop CS2, and I just discovered in the past two weeks it’s got some deceptively powerful vector tools for speech bubbles and comics. open source programs used to be pretty pathetic compared to “professional” ones but the gap between krita and say, CSP is pretty nil.
Now to talk brushes: I uploaded a slightly older version of my go-to brushes here on mediafire some which have been slightly tweaked from krita defaults. there’s a solid pen one, a halftone brush, and some watercolor ones.
however, I discovered these brushes (thanks to @am-herrington) a few months ago and am convinced the linked newer brushes are going to make everything else I have obsolete - the natural/textural inking is just that good. tl;dr - just grab these.
some other odds and ends to my process: i could not draw without the hydrus network which is essentially a booru-esque media organizing program. stores gifs, images, can mass-download images, and has a robust tagging ability. taco’s drawing book is one of the one I’ll also reliably flip through when my brain’s trying to figure out a piece of tricky anatomy. lastly, blambot is my trusted go-to font store when I’m in need of a manga/comics related font; there’s some very generous pricing and freebies for indie comics. COLLAPSE
2024.09.02 21:19:27 編集
your ruin, my ruin (epilouge) // a #fefates gunter/corrin doujinshi side strip; revelation route. based on the final scene of this fanfic.
after everything – the fight against anankos, the possession, peace between nohr and hoshido – gunter and corrin have one last decision.
this strip will be part of a printed gunter/corrin r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
2024.09.02 21:17:05 編集
JD Riley and kradeelav curated an #original nazisploitation anthology during spring 2024 called NaZine I with over fifteen contributors - since my copy came in, have a nice crop of my piece.
cover art by the wonderful kmclaude
A beautiful, refined, and uniquely unsettling full-color collaborative work of both art and prose delving into the fantasies of those who find particular joy in the aesthetic of Nazisploitation–a genre long misunderstood and abhorred by the uninitiated. Are you ready to be In The Know?
Contributors:
DES ABRAHAM / IDAL WAVES / JACKBOOT / J.D. RILEY / K. M. CLAUDE / KRAD / MISCELLANIUM / OZZY / ANTON RICHTER / MORO / SALT LICK / EC12 / L.F.
Creator Chose Not To Use Warnings
Print - 124 Pages (Full Color) 6.5x9.5in
FREE digital DRM-free low-resolution PDF included
If there’s any questions, happy to answer via email (overlord (at) kradeelav (dot) com)
cover art by the wonderful kmclaude
A beautiful, refined, and uniquely unsettling full-color collaborative work of both art and prose delving into the fantasies of those who find particular joy in the aesthetic of Nazisploitation–a genre long misunderstood and abhorred by the uninitiated. Are you ready to be In The Know?
Contributors:
DES ABRAHAM / IDAL WAVES / JACKBOOT / J.D. RILEY / K. M. CLAUDE / KRAD / MISCELLANIUM / OZZY / ANTON RICHTER / MORO / SALT LICK / EC12 / L.F.
Creator Chose Not To Use Warnings
Print - 124 Pages (Full Color) 6.5x9.5in
FREE digital DRM-free low-resolution PDF included
If there’s any questions, happy to answer via email (overlord (at) kradeelav (dot) com)
DEAD IS CALLING // a gunter/corrin doujinshi side strip; revelation route.
even after anankos is defeated in valla and her lover is returned, corrin wonders… what would have happened if he had won?
⚠ share on tumblr / read on ao3 / share on bsky
⚠ this strip will be part of a printed #fefates r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
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even after anankos is defeated in valla and her lover is returned, corrin wonders… what would have happened if he had won?
⚠ share on tumblr / read on ao3 / share on bsky
⚠ this strip will be part of a printed #fefates r18 doujinshi called ashes and ghost
COLLAPSE
'your ruin, my ruin' is my 120k #fefates gunter/corrin slowburn romance where they both earn their happy ending. 💕 complete, revelation route ~
📚 to read on Ao3
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📚 to read on Ao3
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lululeighsworld and I got together to make a possessed!Gunter FE: Heroes (gacha) unit! crossposted on Ao3 with writing
Leigh did the fantastic writing, and yours truly stitched together the art & UI. Leigh’s inspired me with their unshakeable devotion to the character not to mention talented writing and so it felt like a delightful inevitability, and an honor nonetheless, to collaborate here.
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tl;dr i feel like my summoner design needed a more accurate upgrade? didn't feel genderbent hojo chaotic evil enough... also kinda want more nuanced sleazy flexibility with some body shapes n shit. LOVE the idea of the summoner's robes being like a lab coat and leaning into the mad scientist shape angle. the tricky part is the hairstyles are really similar so it's figuring out how to differentiate w/o going into boring Default gender shapes.
filed under: #zihark